mental health

Karmic Retribution

Do you believe in karma?



Perhaps karma
doesn’t arrive with thunder.

Perhaps it arrives
in the form of a person.

Someone who teases you
the way you once teased someone else.

Uses you
the way you once used someone.

Wanders away
the way you once wandered.

Withholds the tenderness
you once withheld.

Leaves you wondering
why you weren’t enough
when someone else once wondered
the very same thing about you.

And suddenly

you are standing
on the other side
of your own behavior.

A strange little universe
with a wicked sense of timing.

You recognize the wound
because, somewhere in your history,
you were holding the knife.

And yet

here is the strange part.

You are still you.

After the lesson.
After the mirror.
After the person who arrived
carrying pieces of your past
and handing them back to you
one painful piece at a time.

So what remains?

If the people we become
are shaped by what happens to us,
what is left underneath
all the experiences?

Is there a core?

Some small, stubborn self
that existed before the hurt,
before the mistakes,
before the defenses,
before we learned how to leave
or stay
or wound
or protect?

Maybe karma isn’t about punishment.

Maybe it is about perspective.

About finally feeling
what we once made someone else feel.

Not so we can suffer forever.

Not so the universe can balance
some cosmic spreadsheet.

But so we can finally understand.

And perhaps understanding
is the only useful form
of retribution.

Because the real question
isn’t

Why is this happening to me?

It is

Who am I now that I know
what it feels like?

Maybe we don’t become
completely different people.

Maybe we carry every version
of ourselves with us.

The teaser.
The wanderer.
The user.
The wounded one.
The one who loved badly.
The one who loved deeply.
The one who learned.

All of them.

Still us.

And somewhere underneath
all those selves

perhaps there is a core.

Quiet.

Watching.

Waiting for us
to finally become
someone we can live with.

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  1. Karma is every Grain of Sand
    Holding Hands to Create a Beach
    All Enduring Water Waves and Oceans

    Polishing a Grain of Sand

    To Diamond Enduring

    Hehe or Perhaps the
    Sugar White Quartz
    Sands of Navarre Beach
    or just down the Road at
    The Place of Carl Sagan’s ‘Contact’

    Yes Pensacola Beach

    True it’s Not Enough to just
    Associate With ‘Tax Collectors
    And Prostitutes’ Yes Walking Talking
    Dancing Singing in Those Shoes is Much
    More of a Sure Way to Lift Others Up Out of

    Too Much
    This That
    And The Other Thing

    Indeed Karma is a Wave
    Karma is the Wind That Drives
    the Waves Wings are the Wind

    The Bird
    Flies
    Truly
    Never

    Separated

    FRiEnDS
    With
    Gravity

    in Deed Dear
    Miriam With
    SMiLes of Waves
    Winds and Grains
    of Sand that Make

    Contact

    Possible

    At All
    Mountains of
    Human Loving
    Peace Standing Upon
    The Potential of all that is..:)

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