The ghosts still find me. They don’t need directions.They know where I am. They find me in dreams,where the dead are inconveniently alive again,where I can hear a voiceI haven’t heard in yearsand for one glorious, cruel momentforget that I cannot hear it anymore. They find me in […]
Autumn is the cusp of darknesswhen the days grow shorterand the trees begin letting go. But it isn’t winter yet. Perhaps grief is like that. I have lost so many.Some far too young.Some who should still besending ridiculous emails,making me laugh,walking through the worldas if they had all […]
Do you believe in karma? Perhaps karmadoesn’t always arriveas punishment. Perhaps sometimesit arrives as a person. A person who doesn’t love you enough.Who doesn’t listen carefully.Who touches you carelesslyor doesn’t touch you at all.Who makes you questionwhether you are asking for too muchwhen all you are asking foris […]
I loved youuntil I didn’t until I couldn’t. There’s a difference. One is a quiet dimming,like a room at dusk.The otheris a circuit breaking;sparks, smoke,the unmistakable smellof something inside meburning out. Loving you meantlearning to disappearin plain sight. It meanthating myselfin small, socially acceptable waysthe kind no one […]
Every morningthe birds begin their meetingbefore I do. They chirp with an enthusiasmthat feels slightly unnecessaryfor 6:07 a.m. Outside my windowthey are holding some sort of conferenceabout joy. I listen. But the strange thing isI knowthey are not singing to me. They are singing to a lifehappening somewhere […]
I live in a housefull of heartbeat and voices,laughter ricocheting off walls,footsteps tapping rhythms up and down stairs. And yetthere are nightswhen the noise dissolvesand I am alonein a room packed with people. It’s strange, right?To feel invisiblewhile standing center stagein your own life. Pain has a way […]
Way before the sun rose,I looked out beyond the treesand the gray mist, soft and merciless,wrapped around everything.A quiet reminder that some absencesnever really leave,they just learn to settle in the cornersof our breath. I didn’t realize how much it would hurt.How much I would missthe feelings that […]
I was teetering on the velvet edge of sleep,a soft abyss calling me,like the last cookie in the jar at midnighttoo tempting, too inevitable. ThenA flicker.A ghost of a thought.A déjà vu that never had a first act. Who am I when I’m almost me but not quite?Where […]
In my dreams,I am always packing.Suitcases lined up like soldiers,zippered mouths strainingwith clothes I’ll never wearto places I never quite reach. I set out,but the road splinters into side streets,detours,barriers that flash like neon reminders:“Not today.”And so I stumble off-rampafter off-ramp,carrying too much,getting nowhere. The ghosts wait for […]
List 30 things that make you happy. There once was a gal in high heels,Who spun joy like spokes on her wheels.She’d scream to the skies,With no compromise,Then dance till she shattered all feels. Joy is the fire I fiercely chase,In pink my forever riotous grace.Give me magic, […]
