Am I still here?
Did the clock stop? Did the birds drop? Can I see from the top? Did my heart become a mop? Did I survive the bad crop?
Decisive: My word of the year or is it?
Every year I pick a word that will drive the upcoming months. A word that will help frame the year and my day-to-day life. In 2019, I picked the word “joy” . And, that truly was a powerful driving word. I kept that word at the back of […]
That orderly set of items disturbed her
It was a new year but everything felt old and used. Where was the vibrancy, she wondered. Her myriad of random stuff was orderly put together. But that orderly set of items disturbed her. She wanted random chaos as that kept her mind busy. Order was boring and […]
Good riddance 2020 craziness or so we thought
Well, some people woke up ladt Friday thinking that surely day 1 of the new year would usher in sanity and calm. A new day. We are now a week into the new year and we are still steeped in the craziness of the last year. It feels […]
Not every situation needs my reaction
These days it seems that everyone is trying to test one. Throw random things out and see where they land. It’s easy to fall into a pattern of trying to catch or dodge the random items thrown at one. If you try to dodge and catch very often […]
The hand I dealt myself
I did it I tempted fate I caught the light I fed the beast I grabbed the baton I touched the wall I danced the dance And, got the hand I dealt myself
Now I know
I get the pain I get the uncertainty I get the breathing The lightbulbs have been turned on I get the hunger I get the emptiness I get the vacant eyes The lightbulbs have been turned on
Now, she was no longer dangerous
The thing is, she’s dangerous. That’s what she had been told. Laughable, really. Sitting on the bathroom floor popping a xanax didn’t make her feel dangerous. Yet, there was that boom, boom, boom beat to her heart. It pounded and drove her dangerously to the edge of reality […]
Silent scream
I want to scream. You want to scream. Your neighbor wants to scream. Your grocery clerk wants to scream. Your friends want to scream. Your kids want to scream. We all want to scream. But we can’t always scream. There are times when we can silently scream
I need to dream again
I’ve been having extremely vivid dreams. Lucid dreams. Dreams from which I wake up shaken and a bit discombobulated. What did it mean? What am I trying to say to myself? Yes, these dreams mean something. Yet, I am lost as to what it means. But at least […]
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