What’s your favorite month of the year? Why?
January used to be one of my favored months. It held the promise of new beginnings, fresh starts, and the excitement of a year brimming with possibility. There was something about the crisp, cold air and the blank slate of a new calendar that felt invigorating. But over the years, January has taken a different turn for me. It’s become a month marked by sadness, loss, and difficult moments.
I look at May, my birthday month, with joy. And of course, December holds the warmth of the holidays, with all the festivity and togetherness that comes with it. Even August, with its languid summer days, brings a sense of relaxation and happiness. But January? January has been harsh.
I’ve faced some of my most significant disappointments in the depths of winter. I’ve experienced loss, profound grief, and situations that have shaken me to my core. As a result, the month has become a time of year that I now approach with trepidation. I don’t want to feel this way. I want to hold on to that optimism I used to feel, the one that January once promised. I never want to lose hope, no matter how tough it gets.
So here I am, trying to dig deep into a well of optimism, even as the month looms large. We are near the end of November with one month left till the new year. I remind myself that just as the seasons change, so do our fortunes. It’s a challenge to remain hopeful, but I’ve survived everything this far. This January, I’ll do my best to embrace the possibilities, to open myself to the idea that maybe, just maybe, this year will be different.
Here’s to finding light in January’s shadows.
Categories: Culture, current events, death, identity, mental health, Psychology, society, The Seasons
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In Someways it appears We Humans are most
All Magicians In Alchemy of Transforming Shadows
Into Sunshine Within Dear Miriam
Or Sadly Using Shadows
To MaNiPuLaTE Others
to LiVE iN The DarK
Among Veils of Deeply
Blind
Veiled
iGNoRaNCE
In Real Greek Defined
No Apocalypse Now of Truth
True Back in the Dead Zone Days
of 19 Medical Disorders in Life Threat
Including That ‘Type Two Trigeminal Neuralgia’
Just in my Bedroom From Wake to Sleep 66 Months
With That Worst Pain Known to Humankind No Drug
Would Touch even literally assessed as worse than
the Torture
of Crucifixion
Where the Sentence
of 3 Hours to 3 Days
Is Not Nearly A Thousand
Years in a Second of Hell
With No Memory of the
Feeling of A Smile hehe
As discussed yesterday
With SMiLes Anyway then
There Was A Room i Could
Not Bear to Go Back Into as i Recovered
Back to Fully Human Yes a Work-out Room
Filled With Wishes of Death in The Zenith of 40
Days With Almost No Sleep Dragging myself in There
Trying to
Escape
the Void
of Hell Within
in that Spring of 2008
Yes Each and Every Day
As the Rings of Dante’s Hell
Grew Deeper and Deeper in the FroZen
Place
Within
For Real
Yes an Alpha Blocker
Gave me 1 Hour of Card Board
Shallow Sleep the First 35 Days
And Then Nothing Worked at all those
Last 5 Days
Finding Out
There are Some
Potential Human Experiences
Much Worse Than Any thought of Death
As Only
Escape
That i
Failed to Do
Then
From the
Bottom Floors
Of Hell For Real
No God Dammed Myth Indeed
Anyway It Was Years Before i Went Back
Into that Work-Out Room Really Until Covid-19
Came and the Gym Closed Down Resurrecting the
Room into
A Place
of
Exercise again
The Truth is Our External
Environments Are Always
Secondary to Our Realities Within
Two Folks Sitting Next to Each Other
In Hawaii or at a Florida Beach in Paradise
The Other Only Wishes The Ocean Would Swallow
Them Up
And at Least
They Would Be
Part of anything
Greater than they are
Now i am the Water Waves
Ocean Whole Quite A Magic
Feat of Alchemy i Am Now For Real
No Matter Where Or When
i Go i Carry these
Wings NeW That
DO
NoW
Fly
WiTHiN
Free With SMiLes..:)
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I’m with you! I can absolutely relate. January and February just kind of suck. Holidays are done, cold weather drags on, and yes let’s not forget the anniversaries of tragedy and loss 💔. I really like your take on this going forward. I’ll make a serious attempt to adopt the mindset you described 😊. I’ll also focus on gardening efforts for 2025 during that time as well, because our growing seasons begin right after that 😊. Thanks for writing this; very important stuff 🙌
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