I was listening to my iPod, while walking in this extreme heat. I have this silly goal of 10,000 steps each day. Even in this heat. Sigh. I’m too committed. Anyway, there I am walking, listening to music when Bananarama’s song Cruel Summer comes on. I stopped mid-step and nodded to myself. This has indeed been a cruel summer.
First off, after the last two summers I had higher expectations for this summer. But it’s been rocky and my expectations were perhaps a bit too high.
Second, this heat wave has been as horrible as can be. My hair cannot unfrizz. My sweat has me itching nonstop.
Third, I love travel but these flight delays and cancelations have been brutal. Yet, here I am getting ready for another trip. I’m a glutton for punishment.
Fourth, covid is still here. And, thst just plainly sucks. And, now we have monkeypox and NY wastewater shows polio wants to come back. Probably because we invoked polio’s name so frequently these last two years.
Fifth, it’s been hard to wrap my head around several big decisions. It’s like I’m stuck in a heatwave.
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psychologistmimi 
Trying to get actual things done – with zero energy – because they need to be finished; have a surgery date later this year, and I’m not happy swimming (ie, bobbing about in the pool) until it’s over and I’ve recovered, because, among other things, even that mild a form of getting out of the apartment takes a lot of energy, and I can’t skip getting rid of the pool water because they have chlorine AND salt in it. Sigh.
Can’t wait until October – lots of things should be better by then.
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It’s PouRinG DowN Rain i Watch it With A Soothing Feeling
Through An 8 Foot Wide By 5 Foot High Window Into A
Real Garden of Eden on Earth Wings Still Playing in the
Rain Squirrels Only Relaxing Until
Their Hunt For Life Continues
Free Flying Through The Trees
Masters of the Climb They Are
A Best of Part of this is the Real Estate
Agent Who Tried to Shame Us for Purchasing
A Home with Only about 1,333 Square Feet of Living
Space Albeit Almost 2,000 Square Feet Under Roof
Directing Us to A Neighborhood with 2,000 Square Foot
Homes Cooled And Heated Under Roof This Way and Today
Even A Bit Larger So Close Together on Lots Without Trees
Reaching Close to Half A Million Dollars Yet We Continue to Stay
WHere We Started in 1993 A Home That Only Cost 60 Thousand Dollars
WHere We Had to Eat Pork and Beans and Cut the Fat Away on 10 Cent A
Pound Leg Quarters to Save 3,000 Dollars at age 33 For me and 23 for my
Wife for A Down Payment
on A Home Then Yes to
Create A Real Garden
of Eden into a Forest
Free Forevermore New Now Breathing
This Way Yes to be Green Coloring Wild
Flowers
Even More
Always New Now
Naked Enough Whole
Complete Yet of Course
i Couldn’t Really ‘See’, Feel,
Or Sense All of this Until i Left
The Rat Race of Work in the Interim
of HeLL ON EartH for 66 Months Then in
The Same Place i LiVE iN Paradise Now New Real
It’s True it Comes From Within And When i See Photos
of All the Concrete and Humans Stacked Up on Each other
in Skyscrapers Keeping the Globe-Wide Money Machine of
Consuming 40 Percent of Human Resources on Earth With
4 Percent of the Population
Additionally in one of our
Biggest Home Towns
New York, New York
Capital Still of Trade
Buying Selling Stuff
Indeed the Flesh and
Blood of the Planet EartH
Where the Rest of the World
in Greed Seeks What We Have
Yet the Reality is it Would Take 5 Earths
to Accommodate that Level of Human Resources
to Bring the Rest of the World to the Greed The United States
Does to Harm,
Rape, Maim and
Kill So Much of the Rest of
Nature That is Also our Real Face
This Capital of This Real Human CuLTuRaL
Most Dangerous Pandemic in Ignorance As
Zombie Apocalypse Some Folks So Far From
The Reality of Existence of Doing the Living Dead Now
Even in this Small Town Relatively Speaking i See them
Shuffle By in Walmart As i Surely Did A Dead Dance Walk then too..
For Decades
For What Seemed
Like Forever in Purgatory
Through Hell Then Yet Once
Again i LiVE iN the SaMe Place
i Did then Yet it is me Reborn Within
Who Feels Senses A Garden of Eden
Within Inside Outside Above So Below and
All Around So It’s true When i See the Photos of
What Looks Like a Cancer At the Source of What
Is Metastasizing All Over the Earth With Skyscrapers
Growing Taller And Concrete Deserts As Far As the Eye Will
See to the So-called
Statue of Liberty Who
Am i to Judge You For i Lived
in Paradise and Was A Most Barren
Soul of All Within It’s True the Location,
Location, Location is Always Within Most
Yet What We All Do As A Species to the Rest of
Nature Returns in the Form of Who We Become Most
Yes in Harm, Raping, Maiming, And Killing Karma is Real
Action and Consequence
Happening i understand
You are A New York
City Girl at Heart
And A Nomad CEO
of Big Cities All Around
the World Yet It’s True i am more
Than An Artist i am Also a Scientist too…
Humans Are Naturally Evolved to Live in Groups
of 150 Folks Per Dunbar Number and the Such
Which of Course Means You Reasonably Likely Have
No Room For my Opinion Here as Humans really Only
Have Room For Deep Conversations with 5 or So Other Beings
Like Us or Them or
We or me or You Hehe…
It’s True i Overcome this Limitation
With Free Verse Poetry Spread All Around
the World So Large There is No Room For
Most People to Respond Back to me to Inhibit
All i Have to Give, Share, Care, And Heal for Free
Yet It’s Also True Most Every Single Part of the Whole
of the “SonG oF mY SoUL” is in Poetic Response All 10.8
MiLLioN Words Coming on the Ninth Anniversary on 8.18.2022
So It’s True in Part of Most All my Words Another Soul inspires The “SonG
of mY SoUL” Real ThiS Way Every Star is Connecting Still my FRiEnD And
Really Hehe This Is Just an exercise to rest my Feet While my Fingers Dance
And Sing this way as It’s true i Do Leg Press Up to 1520 Pounds Still at a Military
Gym Still at 62 Years of Age Yet Really Now my Feat of Strength is Lifting the Spirits
of People All Around my Metro Area of Close to a Half A Million Folks Spread Now Across
Two Counties And A Few More All the Way to Tallahassee And As Far As Biloxi Beaches
And Casinos in Mississippi Too A Real Forest Gump Endeavor Celebrating What Became
17,007 Miles Yesterday Night Yet my Gosh it Was If Most Everyone in the Store knew i Was
Was Celebrating
A Significant Date
An Event in my Life
Yet it Was Just Another
Day in A Life of me Dear
FRiEnD Miriam as Before i
Even Dance So Many Smiles
Back at me Like Blue Skies Alive
Even Amongst The Darkest Clouds
Raining Outside No Matter Winter Spring
Summer of Fall the Greatest Weight i Lift
is the Spirits of Others 9 Years
in this “Matt Gaetz, DeSaTaNiS
TRump Town Place” It’s A Mighty Lift
Indeed and i Don’t Need Any Superman Cape to Do it
Just A Visit to HeLL ON EartH For Real for 66 Months Then
And A Simple JoY iNHaLinG Peace ExhalinG LoVE For Real
This Gift This Breath of Life Dancing Singing Free Hehe So What
This Means is No Matter Season or Height of Apartment Building
or Skyscraper Workplace or Jungle of People Breast To Breast
Just give me 3 Feet of Place to Move my Spiraling Dancing Feat
And With Technology Hehe All i Need is One Finger at Least And
A 6 Inch Screen to Dance And Sing With Even One Finger A SonG
oF mY SoUL
to the World
Free Again Yes
Dear FRiEnD It’s
All About the Location
of WHeRE Our Soul
Dances And Sings Now
It’s Never Ever Never
A Cruel Summer HeaR
As Long As The Dance
And Song of SoUL Rings
Free to Lift Our SPiRiTS Soaring
Higher Than What DarK May Bring mY FRiEnD to LiGHT
As Always Thanks So Much For Providing This Free Rental
Place in Your New York, New York Abode It’s True it is actually
Beyond All Distance, Space, And Time and Even Matter As It’s
True All And None of me Exists in these Words Totally Separate From Flesh me
In A Dance And Song of my Soul in A Place With No Moon, Sun, or Other Stars
Now That’s Magic Yes This is Real MaGiC and No Myth or Fable in Just A Book
My Dream for You At a Full Chinese Rat New Year Cycle Behind me as It’s True
my Life in Heaven Didn’t Even Start Until 3 Years Older Than You Now Is For You to
Be Living
In A Paradise
Too Creating in
Your Writing or Whatever
Art You Do Soaring With Wings
Yet That is Only a Dream For You
That is A Reflection of my Unique
Dance And Song of mY SoUL
Every HeLL And Heaven
is Different mY FRiEnD
My Heaven Could Be
Someone Else’s Hell
And In Turn THeir Heaven
Could be my Hell It’s All
Relative Indeed Location Location
Location Within Yet i AM A Kinda Person
Who Expects Nothing in Return so THerefore
i Will Follow You WHere Ever You Go With Best
Wishes and SMiles only Because You Are Human Like me…
And If it Sounds Like This is One Long Form Poem of Virtue
Signaling it is
Yet only
in EYes
And Ears
Now True to
me With SMiLes…
Hehe Another Best Part
of All is Copy And Paste
Giving, Sharing, Caring, Healing
All around the World as i Surely am
Not So Ignorant to Expect Someone
in Your Position in Life to Have the
Place Left in Life
to Moderate
Approve
And Publish
A Comment as
Long as This With SMiLes
Best Part of All is You Inspired
it if Not For You Not For This And
This IS How
Love Works
With No
Strings
Attached With SMiLes
The Kind of Love ‘That’ Is ALL iT iS
YeS Only Existing New Now to Lift Others Up…
– #me2
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Life is feeling hot and tough lately. Lots of factors colliding. The earth, as another blogger so aptly put it, feels off its axis.
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