Today I am amused and bemused. Today I am settled and unsettled. Today I am bored and stressed out. The mind is numbed. Yet, emotions running wild and thoughts streaming away on their own. I’m a runaway freight train with no will to stop. I want to hide. I want to confront. I don’t care. I care too much. I smile but it’s a cry. I tear up but it’s a smile. Rita Hayworth running through a hall of mirrors. No knowing who’s really behind you or beside you. So many secrets that one can’t keep. There’s no turning back. Drink the lollipop dipped in fear. Sit on the elevated chair. There’s always a good fight to fight until there is not. Sometimes, it’s just time.