I don’t know about you all, but I did see some of this coming. I was watching from afar earlier in the year and started thinking of how an outbreak may manifest here. I suppose I saw some of this coming because I’m in healthcare, am skeptical of many things, and I have written academically about the ebola outbreak. My mind was primed.
Now, despite seeing it coming, I too have been knocked back by the despairing ferocity of the situation. This includes the rapid spread as well as the rapid downturn of the economic market. I don’t think I truly saw the latter coming. Actually, I know I didn’t see that economic downturn or standstill coming. Everything has stopped. Only three people at a time into certain businesses. My hair salon closed for a while. Yes. Those are not really important. But those are what blindsided me.
The human toll has been so to manifest in the United States. Then it became the apocalypse. At least in New York. One thing about a week ago it all hit me hard. I was giving an update and had to take a moment to mentally decompress. It was literally a moment as I had to get right back to moving a conversation forward. After I left that conversation I paced around the room and then felt a moment of panic. A moment of despair. It all felt too much. I wondered if the Walking Dead show was in actuality a glimpse into our collective future. That was too much to fathom at that moment. Two minutes later I moved myself onto the next task at hand.
Therafter, I have held it together. However, each morning provides me with a little bit of anxiety as there is so much unknown. Now, I am just settling into this new normal. Our psyche is maybe less battered. I don’t know if that is true or whether that is comforting. I am not too sure we want to acclimate to this. Instead, we may wish to not accept this state of being as our new normal. This chaos and frustration shouldn’t be part of this new normal.