Am peeling
Not grieving Not reeling But instead am peeling A burst of feeling Heart scaffolding teeming
I’m allergic to bears
I am a fairly healthy person. Except for.. well, I was going to joke and list 1000 things wrong with me. But maybe that wouldn’t be funny. To me it is. I’m an acquired taste perhaps. But, most of the time my labs come back perfectly. Except this […]
Much broke my heart, but fixed my vision
There is much in life to celebrate. I truly believe that. Everyday I feel the need to either photograph the sunrise, belt out a tune or laugh a good belly laugh. Life is good. It can be. However, that doesn’t take away from the heartbreak one goes through. […]
Oh the elevator in pandemic times
The guy blocked me. He was exasperated. He was flustered. He was annoying. Although, as I will note everyone has a different comfort level regarding covid and possible covid exposure. I get that completely and I try very hard to be respectful. I work in healthcare and thus […]
Three of me
Three lives Three of me The good, the bad, the ugly The past, the present, the future All in one Subdivided Numb, happy, weary Off to see the false emperor Three states of mind Three bites at the apple
Walking out on the doctor
I am in the healthcare field. Have been for a while now. I understand how clinic workflows run or are supposed to. I understand what quality care is to entail. I understand the finances. I understand productivity and provider concerns. I get it. I breathe it. As a […]
Don’t feed the monster
Want to be finally free. Open the door. Shed the light. Thing is. The monster always lurks beneath. Mustn’t feed the monster. Walk away. Don’t give in. Find a new response. Redirect. The monster is waiting to pounce. It’s teeth ready to bite. Eager to rip off a […]
Mask oh mask
I work in healthcare. I go in everyday to work. I wear a mask everyday, all day. I have no issue wearing the mask despite the extreme heat the past week in New York City. In the very beginning of the pandemic, I wore the N95 mask while […]
2020: The year that wasn’t
For some of us there have been some major historical events that are marked forever more in our consciousness. When 9/11 occurred I wondered for days how we would get through that feeling of sadness and despair. We got through it. We mourned. We strategized. We grew up […]
Burning doubt
Bitter pills. Poison pills. Self-doubt. Doubt about others. Concern about truth. Concern about one’s steadiness. Wondering about the right steps. Wondering about the next steps. Calculating risks. Calculating possible rewards. Reviewing decisions. Reliving decisions. Recalibration. Doubt. Burning doubt. All together doubt is a hard thing to process and […]
