You left me.
You left us.
You left the world.
Everything is upside down.
It’s all a blur.
Can’t remember who bought that mug.
It’s an ugly mug.
But it was with us for 20 years.
Bah humbug!
The bugs are biting.
I spray the coldness.
The burn is still there.
There is no rhyme or reason.
Except there is.
The world keeps spinning.
But you’re long gone.
The ship sits still.
I’ve got no oars.
I just have emotions.
And, those may be too raw.
Yet, I keep rowing.
Sheer will-power.
But I’m tired.
Why did you go?
Categories: death, family, identity, mental health, Psychology, society, women
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A Terror Beyond Horrifying
Experiencing the Suicide Disease
Not Understanding How Much Harder
Life Will Be Than Death Dear Miriam my
Wife Saying With Terror You Are Going to ‘Leave me’
Aren’t
You And
No One Else’s
Choice Yet Mine
Not Sure if i Ever told you
The Story Yet Picking Out a Tree
On A Road My Wife Never Named
A Couple of Years into the Suicide Disease
Not Wanting to Go Yet Not Sure if i Could Bear
Another Second in 66 Months With a Dentist Drill in my Right
Eye and Ear With No Drug That Would Touch the Pain Or Numb
A Chain off of my Work-Out Machine A Tree Deep On that Forest
Road Now Cleared Away For a Huge Subdivision my Plan Only
The Vultures Would Find me For a Meal to Make Life Some Purpose
Then That Spring Morning my Wife Waking Up Saying She Had the
Strangest Dream She and Her Deceased Grandmother Hanging Ornaments on A
Tree on that Road She Named She Never Talked About Before i Didn’t Take That
Chain Out of the Bicycle Basket Until the Pain Went Away on July 19th, 2013
Yet There Was No Doubt God Existed At that Point and i had No Choice Thank
God Yet to Stay of Course It Would Be Up to me to Look Within And Find This
God Beyond
All Names
That Sends
Miraculous Dreams
to Folks Who Still Wear Wings…
i’ve Witnessed the Most Horrible Nightmares
i Never Imagined Could Ever Exist Within me for Real
i’ve Witnessed The Most Wonderful Dreams in Fruition Within
me For Real That i Never Imagined Could Exist Before And Every
Role That Folks Said i Couldn’t Play in Life i Proved to myself i WILL
This Much i Know
For Sure i Know Nothing
Yet Total Non-Knowing Faith
God Yes Life is a Gift Life is a Curse
Yet We Hold Each Other Up A Stranger
Same as A Closest Friend Once We Reach
‘The Farthest Star’ Within…
Where Death and Life
Is Foe No More
Than Birth
With SMiLes
All That’s Left to Do Is Do..:)
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