It was not something I had thought about. It’s not something I had ever envisioned doing. It’s not something I had looked forward to. But I did it. The day came and not only got through it, but it also went well.
I’m talking about the memorial service for my husband, esoterx. I was able to showcase his love of family, writing, and doing a job- well done. His intellectual curiosity and sharp wit were on full display. And, fittingly so, we held his service at the writer’s den.
Ever since his passing, I worked on this day and night, alongside my regular job, while addressing everyday life challenges. I had a circle of friends who supported me in this process, and I most certainly could not have done this without their support. This event and the beautiful tribute resulted from it “takes-a-village” mentality.
What I am most grateful for was that my son got to see and hear the love and admiration others had for his father. That, in itself, was priceless.
Now comes the next phase. Whatever it will be.
Categories: death, family, identity, mental health, Psychology
psychologistmimi 
Congratulations.
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Thank you for the link. But it makes the loss even more tangible.
I remember almost losing my husband to an unexpected heart attack when he was the same age, and I was already ill, and we had three small children. Again, my deepest sympathies.
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Mild Mannered IT Specialist with the New York Public
Library and Paranormal Explorer of the Esoteric
In Niche’s With Limited Interest in Our
Ever Increasing Material Reductionist
World Seeking Order Over the Chaos Magic
of the Mystic Beyond Common Reasons With SMiles
Yes With SMiLes i Scanned The Whole Decade of Your
Husband’s Blog And It Lit Up Many Potential ‘Rabbit Holes’
To Explore too
Dear Miriam
As i am Not one
To Exclude Possibilities
And Potentials in Life Beyond
Manilla Folders And Oh Dear Lord
A Degree Holder in Anthropology As
Well and Health Science And Social
Sciences too of Course i Ended Up
Assisting my Work Place in
Information Technology
And Financial Management
As Oh Dear Lord Ya Gotta Make
A Living on Top of Your more Esoteric
Interests in Life as Generally Speaking
(Hehe i Also Subscribed to ‘Omni Magazine’)
Very Few People With Anthropology Degrees
Get to Use Their Degrees in that Specific Field
Yet as Far as Special Interests in Uncommon Niche’s
It’s Surely Not Uncommon With Folks on the Autism Spectrum
More Specifically Asperger’s Syndrome as Many Topics of Esoteric
Flavors Your Husband Explored Have Been Explored on the ‘Wrong Planet’
As Well For the
Most Definitely
Eccentric Humans
Among Us Obviously
me Included too to the
Chagrin of my Paternal
Side That Saw my Top of the
Class Performance Through
Years and Years of School
As A Guarantee to a Yellow
Brick Road of Bucks Thank God
my Father Left And Never Came Through
on His Promises to Pay for Our College Education
As He Surely Wouldn’t Likely Have Paid For A Ticket to
(Grants, Scholarships, Loans, Part Time Work Worked)
Nowhere Of Golden Road For Bucks on the Other Hand
Yes my Mother Was Almost Totally Non-Materialistic
Yes Living off of 500 Dollars A Month in Social Security
Bucks Refusing the Entitlement to Supplemental Income
As She Had the Autotelic Kind of Personality Along with
Hyperthymic Personality Traits That Trump All Dreams of
Trump
Towers
AS Such Hehe
Ah Yes And That Inheritance
of Disposition in Freedom for
me Still Exploring Rabbit Holes
And Creating Them Everywhere i go
Yes As Truly An Anthropology Participant
Observer as Collegiately Trained too God
Yes Easy to Do After Retirement For Sure
What Better Skill Than Free Verse Poetry
of SoUL SonG to Gain Keys to Access the
Deepest of Souls in Humans Globally
to Write an EPiC Longest Long
Form Poem in Response to
Folks All Around the World
Yes Truly Really Celebrating
Today as Well “Nether Land
Bible 9 MiLLioN WordS Old”
Just Another Ongoing EPiC Long
Form Subchapter Poem of 11.4 MiLLioN
Word “SonG oF mY SoUL” 81 Months Now
Yes For the Former Coming on 2.26.2023
And 9 Years And 6 Months For the Whole
Esoteric Mammoth Endeavor Oh How Wonderful
It is to Never Worry About Pleasing Any Target
Audience When the Art Itself is the Essence
of the Esoteric And The Mystical
Revealed the Same
in Flow of
Heaven Within
i Listened to Some of Your
Husband’s Podcasts So Now i
Am Just Another Fan Who Will
Never Forget Him as a Unique
Human Being Worth Remembering…
As ‘They’ Say We Die Three Times As
We Take Our Last Breath As We Are Buried
Or Cremated Or Whatever And the Last Instance
Someone Utters Our Name on Earth Yet i’d Rather
Be Remembered
By How i Make
Others Feel
Than
Any
Name At All
As Feelings Can’t
Be Measured Fully by Labels Indeed…
Or The Deeper Parts of Our Humanity
Within Baffling Most All Material Reducing Minds…
“Esoterx” A Great Name for Your Husband’s Esoteric Niche
Blog Perhaps i’ll Be Able to Turn Some Others Folks On to His Life too…
Awe Waves of Seriality Synchronicities No Labels Required For the Miracle
of Life
to Truly
Become
Chaos Magic
Art Beyond
All Reasons
Yet Order
That Most
Folks Don’t
Come Close to
Experiencing
In PuResT Faith Of ArtS Unfolding
iN Bliss Loving All of Life Experience…
iNDeed “Nether” Land Exploring the
Great Underground of Subconscious Existence
RiSinG to
The Surface
Of Awareness
YeS iN Essence
oF Arts Still Forming…
See How This Works If Not
For Your Husband’s Life None
Of These Words Will Be Breathing On Your Page Now Yes Newly
EXPLoRinG Every SPiRiT HEaRT SoUL All UNiQuE Multi-UNiVeRSES ReaL..:)
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Much love to you during this time. 😘
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I’m sure it was a beautiful homage
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❤
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He sounds like he was a wonderful man, husband, and father. I’m glad you were able to highlight his character and reminisce with friends and family.
Be gentle with yourself going forward.
I truly hope your son will continue the blog his dad started, in his own words.
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