There are many quotes, memes, and pictographs out on social media encouraging people to follow their dream. Be courageous. Be bold. Be daring. They all scream into their platform megaphone to find the courage to do what you love. I know that I personally hear some version of that phrase about five times a week. Probably more like 15. But I’m not here to quibble with myself.

Yes, I want to have that courage. I’m actually a very bold, courageous person. However, that gets tiring. I’m at a point where I do want to take a leap of faith, but I’m wondering what for. What is it that I want? I think I know what I don’t want. I don’t want toxicity. I don’t want inauthenticity in my life. I don’t want ridiculous untruths. I just have to figure out what path is no so cluttered with all these things I don’t want.

I want to know what my dream is, while hoping it’s not actually a nightmare. I want to wake up knowing what my truth is. When I attain such clarity, courage will come naturally. But it’s hard to be bold when the skies are cloudy and you can only see ten feet ahead.