childhood

Thinking of my mom and connect four

What’s your favorite game (card, board, video, etc.)? Why?

I’m currently recuperating from surgery. I’m supposed to be happy to have some time off from work. Which I am. I’m supposed to be making the most of this time. Which I don’t whether I am or not, as that phrase and concept is nebulous and meaningless.

As I sit here dreaming of trips and watching bad movies, I briefly let myself imagine that my mother is still alive. I picture her playing ganes with me to distract me. I picture her playing connect four with me. That was our game. I must have played that over a thousand times with her. I became unstoppable. I couldn’t lose. Should I be playing that game now without her? I have three different versions of Connect Four. The game could be comforting in a way that watching bad movies is not. But at some point, I have to figure out what it means to make the most of my time.

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  1. My mom is all I have left of my original family and I’ve taken over the majority of the cooking from her. I know how meaningful it is to spend time with her as she is 82 now and we’ve both lived through the losses of our only sons. So many things are loaded with meaning these days, and we find ourselves remembering stories of the past that we need to find a way to put down on paper or computer for other family members like my brother’s adult kids and grandkids. Time feels short in too many ways.

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  2. Pass Go Collect 200 Dollars

    True Monopoly Was Fun As A Child
    Playing it With Family and FRiEnDS

    BacK iN The Days Dear Miriam Before Wired Up
    Life Including Wireless Breathless Connections Hehe

    Yes It’s True That’s All There Was to it Just The
    Game Just The Present Moment of Playing With
    Others Warmly And Usually Winning too Getting All

    That Rent From Park Place and Boardwalk Hotels Yes

    Dear Lord As Much
    as i Loved Playing

    That Game Then

    i Surely Am Glad i Don’t
    Have to Pass Go Anymore
    to Collect 200 Dollars to Go More

    And More And More Just Never Ending
    Wash and Rinse And Dry Cycle of the Monopoly

    World i No Longer Play A Part in Anymore At All With SMiLes

    No Longer Cog or Machine Thank God i’ve Come to BE A Real Human Being..:)

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  3. Rest, recover, reminisce – and don’t be so busy! You’re healing, it’s a process, and a lot of it will be boring. Do take good care of yourself – maybe write some of the memories down.

    Whatever you do, don’t get in the way of the healing. It’s not as easy as we think to put things back together after major insults. Bodies need their time. Minds do, too.

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