Inconclusive: One of the worst words ever

I’m boatding a flight right now, feeling complete anxiety.  I hate flying. Really hate it. Live traveling. I pray everyday for teleportation. But the flying is not part of my anxiety.

Today, the word is inconclusive. When you have been sick for a few months and lab results come back as inconclusive and you are told your biopsied cells are being sent for molecular testing, anxiety can be overwhelming.

And, when the provider tells you they wish to see you in person, your heart rate jumps. It accelerates.

Inconclusive. Leaves too much doubt. Leaves too much to the imagination. I just want to know. And, work from there. I put lists together. I put action plans together. I don’t do waiting for an answer very well.

Breathe in and breathe out.

Breathe in and breathe out.

3 replies »

  1. You might consider imagining each possible test result. Then picture how you will respond and what you will need to do for each. You can conclusively say that it will be one of these and I am prepared for each possibility. Instead of being in helpless anxiety you will have experienced each possibility in advance and visualized your way through. Nothing will be a surprise.

    It is a Stoic technique and may not work for everyone. I wish you the best.


  2. Hope it’s not one of the lifetime ones – no reason it should be, of course.

    You don’t need horror stories.

    But if it’s anything, there are support groups for almost everything, and you get a lot of questions answered in them. Saved my sanity, probably my life, too. Join one, try several out, don’t be afraid to ask for support – and to give it. You don’t have to stay, but the good ones are 24/7. SOMEONE is up in the middle of the night when you can’t sleep.

    Hope you find out soon, whatever it is. Knowing is always better. Gentle hugs.


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