mental health

Same as it ever was

Today went by in a blur. But not a good blur. It was a headache-filled, cold-bones blur punctuated by sharp metaphorical body blows and annoyances. Usually when things go by in a blur, the day doesn’t sting as much. As I navigated the fog, I kept singing the Talking Head’s Once in a Lifetime.

In particular, I kept shaking my head to myself saying “same as it ever was”.

“And you may find yourself living in a shotgun shack
And you may find yourself in another part of the world.

Here a twister comes, here comes the twister
Same as it ever was, same as it ever was
Same as it ever was, same as it ever was
Once in a lifetime, let the water hold me down
Letting the days go by

Sometimes, actually quite often, things don’t change. No matter what, the hamster wheel keeps spinning. Same as it ever was.

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  1. Oh Dear Lord
    New York New
    York Non-Profit Health
    Care Amazing CEO

    Who Just
    Keeps Going Going

    A Real Energizer Bunny

    Yes i Kid You Not i was
    Looking at my Wife And
    Singing The Similar Lyrics
    Before this Visit today Wondering
    How She Can And Still looks the
    Same After 32 Years of Marriage

    True the Lyrics Went Like this And
    It’s True i Was Actually Raised in
    A Hundred-Year-Shot-Gun Home
    Down Town On the River Yet of
    Course if it was Similar Property

    in New York, New York, it Probably
    Would Have Sold For More than 20,000 Bucks
    Back in 1983 Or So Then to the Gulf Power CEO In Town

    Yes Singing These Lyrics Watching My Wife Wear No Makeup

    “And you may find yourself living in a shotgun shack
    And you may find yourself in another part of the world
    And you may find yourself behind the wheel of a large automobile
    And you may find yourself in a beautiful house, with a beautiful wife
    And you may ask yourself, “Well… how did I get here?” Well, Well, Well,

    My God i’ve Spent So Many Years of my Life Decades Here and There
    In A Wash, Rinse, Dry Cycle of A Routine That Didn’t Stimulate Near my

    Human Potential then

    Watching Paint Dry

    Writing One Word

    In A Pass Down Log
    Working For the Military
    At First Yep Just the Word
    “Routine” to Log in What i Did
    Every Day for Years Looking at
    the Budget Book to Save More Money
    Than Paycheck-to-Paycheck Yet Even After
    3 Degrees How Do Ya Do it Only Moving From
    Three Dollars and Sixty Nine Cents As 369 Might
    Provide the Meaning of Life For Tesla Yet What Do
    You Do Starting at 24 Making that much Still Barely
    Making Over 5 Bucks an Hour at 30 And Freshly Married

    Now i Relax in Heaven Excelling in Human Potentials i Never
    Dreamed About Before Never Worrying About Making Another Penny

    And Honestly i Kid You Not, Some Days Like Today, i Wonder if that 40th Day with
    No Sleep in The Hospital in April of 2008, When i Thought it Was the End of the Line
    And They Gave me A Shot to Put me Down With All the Pain and Sleepless Numb then

    Yes i Muse Now

    Maybe i Did Go

    Away For Real

    Maybe this
    Really is
    Heaven

    Yet if so
    i Didn’t Earn
    it and it would
    Make it Feel so
    Empty if i was Just
    Another One of ‘The Bosses’ ‘Sons’…

    Same As it Ever Was Change Makes Life Worth Living..:)

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