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11:07 p.m., Existential Edition



There is a very specific kind of boredom that only arrives after 11 p.m.

It’s not the energetic boredom of a Sunday afternoon where you might reorganize a drawer or text someone you shouldn’t. No. This is the dimly lit, slightly sticky boredom of someone who has already scrolled the entire internet and found nothing worth their remaining brain cells.

Netflix has betrayed me. Again.
Every thumbnail looks like a hostage situation. “Because you watched…” No, Netflix. Because I existed. That’s why.

Social media is worse.
Everyone is either on vacation, reinventing their brand, or making sourdough with suspicious emotional stability. I, meanwhile, am sitting in the dark like a Victorian widow staring out at the snow-covered hill in my backyard.

It’s very peaceful out there. Quiet. Still. A soft white blanket over everything. The kind of view that suggests poetry, introspection, maybe even spiritual awakening.

Inside, however, my tiny dog is barking at lint.

Not a shadow. Not a sound. Lint. Possibly a molecule of dust with ambition.

So here I sit: tired, bored, vaguely existential. Not unhappy. Just  aware.

Aware of the hum of the refrigerator. Aware of the silence between passing cars. Aware that nighttime strips away the performance of the day and leaves you alone with your thoughts and one deeply suspicious dog.

There’s something honest about this hour. No productivity theater. No curated feeds. No emails pretending urgency. Just darkness, quiet, and the low-grade awareness that tomorrow will arrive whether or not you solved anything tonight.

Maybe boredom at 11 p.m. isn’t really boredom. Maybe it’s decompression. Maybe it’s the nervous system finally clocking out. Maybe it’s the part of you that’s been sprinting all day saying, “Sit. We’re not doing anything important now. We’re just existing.”

Which, frankly, feels radical.

So I’ll sit here a little longer.
Watch the snow glow faintly under the streetlight. Shush the dog.
Let the silence stretch.

Nothing is happening.
And for once, that might be exactly enough.

I welcome your thoughts