At around 3am this morning several rounds of thunder broke through my dream state. It was heavy and ominous sounding. I can’t remember whether I was having a good dream or not. What I did realize was that of course there was thunder. It was officially my birthday. And, you know what? It always rains on my birthday. Even in drought-ravaged Los Angeles. It is just my destiny on life to have a rain-soaked birthday.
From an early age, I learned to always carry an umbrella. I learned all the chants to wish the rain away. But here’s the thing. Sure, I don’t like getting all dolled up, blowing out my hair, to only have mother nature frizz it all out. I’m not happy with that. However, I do love jumping in puddles and singing in the rain. If you have never gone puddle jumping, I highly recommend it. Because of all the thunderstorms I’ve experienced weather-wise in my life on my birthday, I’ve always been prepared for the worst. Yet, I still sing in the rain. I was meant to be a sunny curmudgeon. And, those who don’t get that duality of my personality, will miss out on a good fun and dark ride.
I was recently watching many television shows which pay homage to late ’80s or early ’90s songs. And, I was reminded of the song by Garbage called I’m only happen when it rains. It could be construed as depressing but it’s actually a tongue-in-cheek lyrics parodying the typically angst-filled themes of mid-nineties alternative rock. Now, that is so me.
So, the rain fits me. I just need a better rain coat. And, perhaps some sun breakthroughs. Just to round it all out.
Categories: current events, Psychology, Pop Culture, identity, childhood, music
psychologistmimi 
“I’m Only Happy When it Rains,”
Of Course The First Song That Came
to Mind/Soul For me and Dance is “Singing in the
Rain” By Gene Kelly Now True i Understand How
That Old ‘Garbage’ Song Feels Like too Even When it is
Not Just A Parody of the Grunge Songs of the 90’s Such
As “Black Hole Sun Won’t You Come And Wash Away the Rain”
by Stone
Temple
Pilots of Course
Yet These Days We
Have The ‘Trump Meme’
For Years to Replace That
And the Reality of the 24/7 News
Shows That Relate the Destruction And the
(The Addiction to Adrenalin And Dopamine that
Fear, Anger, And Hate Brings is Still Very Real Now
And Practically An Online Pandemic of Human Soul too)
Blood and Gore of War For All to See in ‘Real Time Now’…
The Human Mind Indeed is a Fascinating Creation of Nature
And An Even More Fascinating Imaginer And Creator Now True
As THere is No Measure of Limits For What iMaGiNaTioN And CREaTiViTY
of the Human Mind May BRinG NoW And Be Even Beyond Mathematical Old
Measures Like
iNFiNITY That Still
BeLieVE iN Human
Created iLLuSioNS of
TiME, Distance, Space and
Matter Yet Again We Humans
Are Imaginers and Creators This
Way Who May Often Dream up the Strangest
of Nightmares and Dreams Come True of CuLTuRE
in Fruition
Both in
Group
And
Even
More Solo Ways Now…
I’ve Lived in the Same Place
For Almost 29 Years Now; There Were
Years i never noticed the Flowers; There Were
Years When Every Cloud Made me Feel Dark Within
And There Was Never Ending Days Where All i Felt like is
A Rain Drop Hitting the Roof, Nothing More Or Less For Real then…
Yet You See No One Ever Told me That i Was/Am Actually ‘A Human Star’ With The Potential
Real Relative Free Will Through An Autotelic Flow Now Of Meditative Dance And Song Free
For the Bio-Feedback to Generate All My Own Happy Neurohormones and Neurochemicals
(Sunshine, Rainbows,
And Oh My God So
Much More For REaL)
Too As Where i Am
From in the United
States The Goals and The
Aims Were Most always External
Spoon-Fed From Birth With a Natural
Self-Fulfilling Prophecy of What Can And Will
Be a Culture of the Greatest Poverty of Not Understanding
One’s Own Self in Finding Intrinsic Manuals WHere No one owns
or controls our Potential for Happiness Except For Us When Indeed
Every Inhale of Peace Exhale of Love is A New Birthday Breath now…
Obviously, if i Worked
in the Same Hell
Hole i Used to
Work in, This Would
Be Virtually Impossible for
me to Do as i am Only Human
And Really All of This is only A Gift,
As Usual Happy
Birthday With SMiLes…
“i’m Singing in the Rain,
i’m Singing in the Rain, ETc…:)
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Love it when it rains . . . Always did, ‘we’ as kids and still for me . . . although I don’t go running around in it these days. (BTW, same time last night, awakened by those heavy rains—hoping for more over the next few hours)
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Happy Birthday! I hope this year brings you happiness, light and peace. PS I also love that song by Garbage
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One of my fave songs. I send you wishes for a very happy birthday and a wonderful year…..and keep carrying that umbrella. 🙂
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Happy Birthday! Wish you a great one!
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