There is a time when all anxiety is stripped from your core. Or rather, there are a few times when that anxiety is stripped. I am one of those odd extroverted introverts. Which means that I am shy but I can put on a good show. I am confident and let that break through the potential fog of shyness. Before I go on the stage I am filled with anxiety, stomach pains and constant internal discussions. Then, I get on the stage and a calm washes over me and I get in a zone. Afterwards, I have to go run on the treadmill. But whatever. Exercise is good one.
Then there is another time of zen. And that is when I realize and come to terms with the fact that all I can do is the best I can. Thereafter, matters will be what they will be. It takes a lot to get to that moment of zen and clarity. If there are plusses and minuses to a situation then either way I cannot lose. I either get a lot of plusses or I avoid a lot of minuses. That to me is calming. I wish I could reach such a state of thought more often, honestly. I would be so much free if I kept such a perspective in my back pocket and took it out in moments of turbulence.
I am often described as a perfectionist. However. I have learned to drive myself further but to also come to terms where there is no where left to go with something.
I know that it all sounds cryptic and vague. But what I am trying to convey is that there are times when a calm washes over one after intense moments of anxiety. And, that feeling of calm is profound. It takes a lot of honest reflection to get to such a point but that payoff is unbelievable. Feeling a weight lifted off one’s shoulder’s is almost as good- better than-a pint of Ben & Jerry’s Strawberry Cheesecake ice cream. Or whatever it is that gives you immense satisfaction. So, I say go for it. Reach for that mental zone of Ben & Jerry’s Strawberry Ice cream. It’s delicious and enlightening.