The funny thing about my face is that it is both very expressive and also very much a poker one. Yes, one can have both of these facial atributes. I can even use my expressiveness to mask and thus mislead. But that is a whole other story. But I have a face that can readily express horror, disgust, anger, happiness, disappointment, and amusement. To name just a few.
Lately, a few people have asked me what I was thinking about as my face, apparently, showed that I was deep in thought. Actually, it has been more than a few people. And, yes, I suppose that I have been deep in thought and have been putting that out there. The last few months, I have been processing a lot of information within a context of ambiguity. I am normally ok with ambiguity and nuance. I work well in zones of grey. But I have been having to give things mroe thought as of late. And, I suppose my face has been showing it. Reminds me of that scene in Sex and the City where Samantha advises Carrie to not get relationship frown lines. My face doesn’t have any wrinkles (yet) and thus I must listen to Samantha’s warning about frown lines. No situation is worth that.
On top of my expressive facial expressions, I also tend to bite my nails. And lately, they are being bitten raw. That’s not good at all as I actually bit one so hard that it bled. I am putting that out there as well, I suppose. Although, I have always bitten my nails. So much so, that my mom put tobasco sauce on my nails to try to dissuade me from biting them. I only ended up really liking spicy foods. Talk about a #fail. Anyway, my nail biting is not meant to be a sign to anyone about anything other than I am very fidgety and have been for decades.
What I have found funny in terms of what I am putting out there is that in the past two weeks more than seven people have stated that I must miss New York a lot. Some have even gone as far as to ask me whether I am moving back. To which I answer, “Of course, I miss New York.” I have never hidden my grand love of that fabulous city. The place in which I grew up during my childhood and the place where I grew up professionally. Maybe, just maybe, I am talking about New York more and more. But fall is coming soon and New York is just gorgeous during that season. So, yes, I am putting it out there that I would love a trip out there to catch the turning leaves, take in some sidewalk scenery and eat up a street food storm.
In all, it is a curious thing what we put out there consciously and not-so-consciously about ourselves. What is even more curious is what people pick up on.