I have never really liked flying despite having a job that required me to travel for ten years. One could argue I was a bit of a masochist. I not only hated flying, I feared it. I hate the takeoff most of all. The first 10 minutes of a flight just set me into a fear tailspin where I picture everything that can go wrong. As a result I try to not have a window seat. I watch endless television shows on my iPad to distract myself. This has been a long, long anxiety-ridden yet fun 10 years as I have gotten to see the world.
For the 16 months, I have been flying on either a weekly or biweekly basis. That is an awful lot of accumulated miles and elite status qualification. I am looking to a completely free Thailand trip, as a result, in the near future. Sadly, the bulk of my elite qualifying miles are on American Airlines and that means I will go to Thailand for free but feel like a mistreated sardine in the process. What can I do? It is what it is. Honesty, are there any good airlines left? Some airlines may not lose you luggage (which is a plus), and others may have a good on-time departure percentage. However, there is always something wrong and that can include the other passengers. There are certain airlines I will not fly because the passengers tend to be horrible. You know what I mean.
Despite my lukewarm relationship with the airlines, I need to travel extensively and constantly. First, I was in San Francisco while my family stayed in New York. Then I was in Los Angeles, while they were in San Francisco. It has been quite a year. With these constant trips my fear could have intensified as they did over the past ten years. However, because I have been traveling home to my baby, the fear has gone to the back of my mind. I still do not like the first 5 minutes of the takeoff. The shakes, the spins and the rapid descent leave me wondering. However, now when I experience turbulence during the flight I do not have an automatic sense of doom. I do go on alert but I keep my blood pressure from rising and I keep my mind from going to super dark places. Now, I just have to consider each flight as if I am going home to see my beautiful, smiling son.