This past year, or I suppose last year, I had a moment where I kept expecting my mom to call me. It, of course, couldn’t happen since my mother has been gone for a while. It was an extremely odd feeling to wait for her call. I so longed for it. It’s a hard feeling to go through.
A few days ago I had a hard, long complicated day. I was upset at the disappointments I had experienced. I was a bit sad at all the craziness surrounding us all. I was supremely annoyed. Agitated, even. When I got home, I sat on the couch and looked at my phone. I started to reach for my phone with the intention of calling my mom.
I had experienced an instinctual reaction of wanting to hear her voice. I didn’t want any words of comfort. No sage advice. Nor any words of slight reprimand at my sullen self. Well, I could have used a smorgasbord board of all that and more. All I had wanted was to hear her voice.
A voice with no words. No sentences. No directives. Just a voice. A hum. A sound. That was what my fingers had been reaching for. I wanted to hear a soothing voice from the past. I want and hope that my voice can provide such comfort to my son in the future.
Categories: family, mental health, Psychology, women
psychologistmimi 
This made me call my mother. It is such a hard thing to go through. You express it so acutely, my heart ached reading your words. There is nothing and nobody like a mother.
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Hear hear!!! Sending you cheers
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I know exactly how you feel. I experienced that kind of feeling on and off for about ten years after my mom passed. There are only a few people in every lifetime that make that kind of imprint on us.
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Such a hard thing to go through. But the warm memories can get us through
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My wife’s mother has been gone for thirty years but she still has life-like dreams and awakens with happiness having talked her…until she realizes that it was just a dream.
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Oh wow. How intense!!!
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Turn the Light On So Easy
For A Person With A Sunny
Disposition to Do Additionally
When the Mother of the Come to
Be Husband Remarks Helen (A Name
Meaning Light) Has The Fairest Skin
of All Surely Reflective
Of Lots Of Estrogen
Associated With
Nurturing
And Raising
Children to One
Day Become Light
of Kindness and Nurturing True…
Of Course Opposites Attract as my Mother
Was All Love and my Father Was All Law Enforcement
for 46 Years Doing that Named the Longest Serving Deputy
Sheriff in Florida At the End of His Career And What Does that
Take A Fearless
Disposition to the
Point Where the Last
Breath Related is Basically
Shrugged off as i Don’t think
i’m Gonna Make it Calmly Dropping to the Ground Never
Getting Up Again Yes It’s true There Are Advantages of
Both Ways of Being And Disadvantages too Combining
The Two in Balance A Lifetime Practice of Achieving for me now
To Mix The Captain
Kirk and Spock With
Empath Extras in the Show True…
Every Day Every Now That i am Kind and Nurturing
to Other Folks Even Strangers With Love Unconditional
Truly Focusing on them at that Point of Existence As the
Most Important
Face of
God in the
World it’s Obvious
My Mother Didn’t Go Anywhere
Really When She Died Yes She
Still Breathes in me Fully As My
Father Does when i Dance Solo With
No Fear Everywhere i go now Well It’s True
You May Be Named
Hero and Legend
And Famous
And All that
Jazz By Dancing
Solo Everywhere You
Go Yet A Much Greater Gift
Is a Successful 32 Year Marriage
For the All Forgiving Merciful Love
That Comes From a Mother of the Same
Unconditional Love…
Someone Has
to Be the
First and
Last Love
Standing
Yet It’s true
Without Fearless
That Love Won’t Travel
Nearly as Far For All that
Love Sees and Breathes For Real
How Fortunate Am i That my Mother
And Father Found What They Were
Missing in Each Other to Create me
and My Sister With SMiLes It’s True i Can’t
Count the Number of People in my Life who
Have Remarked or Questioned me What my Agenda
is for being the Kindest Person They’ve Ever met And Of Course
(In my Health
Balancing
Years)
i Will only
Credit
my
inheritance
For that Gift Still…
Anyway Like my Mother
i Have the Patience of ‘Job’
And More When it Comes to
Unconditional Love She Surely Needed it With me
As Some How that Mix Sent me to Heaven and Hell too For Real..:)
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