EARLY TO RISE
Happiness. I am in my all-time favorite place taking a well-deserved break. Hawaii! If it weren’t for the fact that toilet paper is so expensive here (an indicator of a high cost of living) I would leave my near-impossible-to-accomplish job and expensive San Francisco house rental (yet tiny and attached to neighbors) in a New York minute. I was asked to think of what tomorrow would look like if I had no cares. This is it! I have a white sand beach at my feet, a lava flow in handy and a gloriously happy son in sight. I am at ease and peace.
This peaceful state of being has been coming for a while, however. Although my new job is stressful and I have taken on a near-impossible situation to fix with no resources or real support from the powers that be (that don’t even recognize what my daily struggles are) I am ok. Truly. That is because I don’t ruminate. I don’t take people’s anger, pessimism and stupidity personally. I externalize these factors as part of the context in which I must navigate. These days, with the workplace being the way it is, you must externalize certain stressors. I have to wonder about the Amazon workplace. They think they have it bad? Try working in the non-profit sector with all that work 24/7 with a fraction of the pay. Not that I want to say they don’t have it bad. Everyone has a right to vent their personal experiences.
At my previous place of employment there was a particularly difficult situation where I worked for 33 days straight for a minimum of 10 hours each day. And I did it willingly. And then I barely got a thank you. And then I left.
At my current place, I will boastfully note (with no shame) that I came in and saved the agency. Five months in I got some accolades and some wacky noted areas for improvement that were insane (future post to come on that when I am less angry). I worked hard to save that place. And I did it willingly. And then I barely got a thank you from some powers that be. And then….I booked a trip to Hawaii and said duck it. I am going to enjoy a lava flow.
See, here is the thing. I am an early bird. I used to get into work (at all jobs) earlier than everyone else. I would leave late as well. I would work at home and on the weekends. Then I realized that although I am almost always the smartest person the agency (by far) I was stupid. No one appreciates an early bird. You just end up getting and doing more work. Now, I still wake up early. Now, I take my time in the morning and watch my son wake up and experience his morning glee. My day is better this way. I am at peace. And I still accomplish in one work day more than others accomplish in a week.