This past week was one of the hardest I have had to endure mentally, physically and spiritually. However, it was the week where I finally enacted my 2014 new year’s resolution. Despite the pain of this past year, I finally achieved what I had set out to do. It was not easy though. Here I go.
I started off the week with a flare-up of radiating arm-pain to the point where two of my fingers could not move. I ended up this past Monday at the local hospital’s emergency room where I had to undergo an MRI. I panicked and could not get into the machine. They had to order me some Xanax. Even after 30 minutes, I was not fully calm but I pushed though. I psyched myself into getting into that cylinder. I made myself count to 2000 and I imagined serene landscapes to from Hawaii to Australia to make me forget that I was in a tight enclosed space with loud banging noises jolting me out of any peaceful reverie.
I then gave a presentation at the United Nations where I had to cut my 8-minute talk down to 3 minutes in an instant. No problem, I thrive under that pressure. I did well and was noted for being a very passionate speaker. That I was ! For I was advocating on behalf of those stigmatized by illness. I felt good thereafter until some crazy colleagues had to go act like debbie downers. There is no pleasing some people. Some people are just always going to be jagged edges rising out of what was beautiful.
Sadly, right after the presentation, I went to a pain management center where they knocked me out with some Propofol and gave my spine an epidural. I traded my arm pain for neck pain. Fabulous! However, eventually, the arm pain did go away. I had 8 hours of pure freedom from pain. Nothing beats that momentary acknowledgement that you are pain-free. My head was getting clearer. As soon as I woke up from the Propofol , I announced to the nurse that I was going to tweet to the world my manifesto. She advised me to wait until I wasn’t so loopy (my phrasing). I as totally prepared to go stand on a rock in the middle of the Pacific and just shout out my thoughts to any passing wildlife.
I then got read some ostensibly-bad work news which did not affect me that way it would have in the past. I was now free and clear. I has reached a sense of serenity. The path to serenity had been littered with loud ego death matches, bad intentions from some not-so-very-nice people, and acute physical pain. But I made it and I did it. I changed the course of my future this past week and I will take the world by storm and will eventually tweet that 140-character manifesto.