A few years back, the phrase “trust the process” became a joke in my world. I heard it repeated often enough in the vein of letting go of rigidity in the workplace. It seemed a hokey phrase to me. Trust the process? Sure. But do you trust those leading the process? I have always felt there is a need to question both the process and the people around me. There was no way I was going to trust the process in the South Bronx. The phrase “trust the process” seemed to be a New Age version of fatalism. Many admonish the Hispanic community for being fatalistic (when it comes to health and disease prevention) yet those same may be the ones to note there is a process to trust. What gives?
Ok. All this to say I don’t like that phrase. It gives me the heebie jeebies.
Now, literally at the crossroads, I was told again to trust the process. I almost a, buying into at this point in my life. Almost. See, I as standing on the side of the road in the middle of nowhere in the midwest where you could see the horizon for miles on end. Such a scenery makes you pensive and contemplative. I was standing there in the middle of a crossroad where lonely souls drove on by tied, weary and with a purpose. I stood there for a moment without a purpose. I was just soaking it all in.
Nothing like standing in 20 degree weather in a vast expanse to get you thinking about your future.
The way I now see it I have three possible paths before me and I have no idea which one I will end up on. I have no idea what I will choose or how I will go about setting things in motion. Everything is standing still before me. I am in the middle of an inert vortex that wants to explode.
Movement wants to break out and run free. But what will it be? I looked and looked across the horizon. An answer lies not out there but within me. I was told in that moment to “trust the process.” Can I?
I will tel you what I trust. I trust my gut. It will push me onto the right path. It will. It always has. I suppose my gut is the process and so I stand at the cross roads trusting the process as such.